My ex had fits
I recently finished a sexual relationship with my ex that lasted for a month or two. All that talk of being riled up and anxious led to what I was hoping it wouldn’t. It was to the point that it started leading to more but I broke it off…for good this time. We had an ugly cycle of making up and breaking up and I couldn’t quite understand it. We love each other but when we argued it would turn into all out war. Well this last time around he told me he was bipolar.
Symptoms include: Mood swings, Irritability, Rage attacks, Changes in energy, Sleeping too much or Sleeping too little, Alcohol and drug use (addictive personalities)
He pretty much showed every symptom outside of the drug addiction (although he was addicted to gambling.) Then it was like a light bulb went off in my head. That’s the reason he gets mad over nothing and apologizes empathetically later. That’s the reason we would break up and make up every other second. It seems so odd thinking back on it that I didn’t see it. Of course by all accounts it’s a completely treatable disorder but he doesn’t want treatment, he thinks the treatment is what makes you crazy. I know what you’re thinking but he’s actually quite intelligent.
All of a sudden everything I saw on tv and in the news was about people who suffer from bipolar disorder. Oprah had two shows on it in one week! Basic jist of all of it was if it goes untreated these folks go crazy. After the second Oprah show, I felt like the universe was telling me that one day he’d go ape nuts and kill me. So when he had his next fit I told him I couldn’t see him anymore. No sex, no friendship, nothing. He hates me now but oh well…the universe can’t be wrong. Odd thing is we were otherwise a perfect fit.
Hmmm. A mental health issue is one of the issues I think I would be most afraid of. I mean, how do they fix your head?! Your ex is probably in denial thinking his problem really isn’t that serious and he doesn’t need any medical or pychiatric help. Then again maybe he has a point… I mean things like that get undiagnosed in Jamaica all the time and people live on. Then again we have nuff crazies walking the streets in Jamaica too! lol
Comment by fiyah — October 12, 2007 @ 1:03 pm
Well I dealt with it for two years so I’m not saying he can’t pass as normal. However he did break my heart and make me feel like I was doing something wrong on more than a few occasions. I guess he’ll be fine if he finds a woman who just shuts up and doesn’t argue back.
Comment by Administrator — October 12, 2007 @ 8:58 pm
I saw that Oprah show too miss Nia. And I think the woman I just had a big confrontation with at the job recently (in my blog last week) may in fact be suffering from that herself. That’s too bad though with your ex. Hopefully, he gets himself some help.
Comment by Luke Cage — October 15, 2007 @ 3:53 pm